TO MY FAMILY (THANK YOU FOR BEING MY REASON TO SMILE)
Same day different thoughts
I sit hear remembering the first poem I ever wrote.
Oh those youthful days full of hope,
Full of love
Full of endless zeal
What has happened?
I am a shadow of my former self
Self confidence replaced with self pity
Zeal replaced with despair
It now feels wrong to hope
Feels false to grow
I want the old me back
I am losing myself one day at a time
Help me get it back
Where has my smile gone?
Not the smile of “things could be worse” but that of “the world is my pedestal”.
Is this what growing up brings?
If this is it then I chose to not grow any longer.
I see my end now
When all I saw was my beginning.
I am giving all of me to everything yet still falling short
Caught in my own court room
Looking for a new bloom
My face like a costume
With a view to a future consumed.
I tell myself everyday
It doesn’t have to be this way
Hope never left
Smiles were always here
And when I start to doubt that which I should know
I hear my babies cry and I know
I look in their eyes and I feel
Only a fool cant see
In them I see my future
I see my past
I see my present
In my family I see myself as I once was
In them my heart truly beats for this world.