TO MY FAMILY (THANK YOU FOR BEING MY REASON TO SMILE)

 

Same day different thoughts

I sit hear remembering the first poem I ever wrote.

Oh those youthful days full of hope,

Full of love

Full of endless zeal

What has happened?

I am a shadow of my former self

Self confidence replaced with self pity

Zeal replaced with despair

It now feels wrong to hope

Feels false to grow

I want the old me back

I am losing myself one day at a time

Help me get it back

Losing track

Where has my smile gone?

Not the smile of “things could be worse” but that of “the world is my pedestal”.

Is this what growing up brings?

If this is it then I chose to not grow any longer.

I see my end now

When all I saw was my beginning.

I am giving all of me to everything yet still falling short

Caught in my own court room

Looking for a new bloom

My face like a costume

With a view to a future consumed.

I tell myself everyday

It doesn’t have to be this way

Hope never left

Smiles were always here

And when I start to doubt that which I should know

I hear my babies cry and I know

I look in their eyes and I feel

Only a fool cant see

In them I see my future

I see my past

I see my present

In my family I see myself as I once was

In them my heart truly beats for this world.

 

 


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